In case you have not seen, I am not the best individual. I ignore texts from folks vital to me, I drink wine not solely on Friday and Saturday nights, and I’ve undoubtedly been identified to honk at somebody longer than vital.
I am a bit loopy and undoubtedly slightly egocentric. I love to do what I would like and after I need, with out anybody’s permission. It is one of many the reason why I’d make such a horrible girlfriend.
I like my independence. Really, it is greater than that. I’m obsessive about my independence. There isn’t any one’s firm I choose greater than my very own.
I’m presently engaged on methods to be much more of a recluse than I already am as a result of I discover nearly all of folks to be annoying.
I can rely all my “critical” relationships on the one hand and my grownup relationships that concerned grown-up issues like maturity and belief on no palms.
Apart from, once you begin to date somebody severely, you date the folks of their life as effectively. And I am uninterested in pretending I like the buddies of my boyfriend, or that I am completely okay with the truth that he and his ex-girlfriend are nonetheless so shut. I do not need to need to argue about the place to eat or who did the dishes final.
On high of being too choosy, or slightly obnoxiously choosy, like my no white socks rule and a requirement that sure bands be of their high 10 checklist, I am additionally drawn to guys who’re jerks. It is a expertise, and it is one which I am getting uninterested in being so good at.
In a beautiful sea of good guys, I’ll need to be with the jerk, the emotionally unattainable one, and the one who will most likely cheat on me after I’m eight months pregnant ought to we ever make it that far. And understanding me, I’d most likely maintain taking him again and breaking apart with him. An insane quantity of drama that nobody desires to cope with.
I am no psychic, however I can see that that is how it might go down, and I will find yourself in my mother or father’s basement with my child, and the neighbors will name us “Boo One” and “Boo Two.” Not a future I would like for me and my potential baby.
So since I’ve had quite a lot of time just lately to re-evaluate my life, the selections I’ve made, and the paths I’ve chosen, I’ve come to an indisputable fact: I make a nasty girlfriend.
Apart from, I do not suppose there’s anybody on the market who can be adequate for me.
Amanda Chatel is an essayist and intimacy well being author for Yourtango, Form Journal, Howdy Giggles, Glamour, and Harper’s Bazaar.
